reasons.

today i sat down and had a biiiiiiig mug of nescafe+hot choc. i even ate a big slice of choc cheesecake! ahhhhhoii...i just dont gv a damn (at least today) about watching what i eat.

somehow i felt like everyday is the same. wake up-morning shower-on9-eat-sleep. dull holiday isnt it?no no no i aint complaining, i know there's a lot i can do, but i'm super duper lazyy..omagad.i need the motivation.lol. trangtangtang. it's boring to do things alone, but doing it by urself means u move faster. hahahaaa ok so i vow to do all the things i have in my mind rite now regardless of alone or with anybody else. hohohoo...

so what do i wanna do? i donno. i'll update later. but still, JINX! hate that. and so, i wont be telling until the things happen. so duhhh~ hohoooo! i need a pen and a paper. so long virtualll world!

oh betapa indahnya...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BewknNW2b8Y&feature=player_embedded#at=17

betapa indahnya rencanaMu~ oh gosh....pujiiii Tuhan halleluyah! amen!

can't belieeeeve this got me cryinggggg~ daMn it.

oh hatiku yg begitu mudah tersentuh recently, oh airmataku yg begitu mudah gugur....apakah semua ini....

betapa besarnya kuasaMu Tuhaaan!

impossible is nothing.

honest post.

ok its currently 11 degrees outside and i've been tossing and turning in my quilt for almost 1 hour now. my cheeks are red, my thoughts are all over the place and obviously my heart is not at peace.

here's the situation : bf's ex and bf is gonna meet up on friday nite. the reason? she has a major prob n she needs sumone to talk to. bf said yes, and told me abt it, asked if i'm ok wit it, i said yes (when actually it's quite disturbing)

here's how i see it.

no.1

i hate the fact that i said yes wen i really mean no. the reason? i wouldnt want to say "doesnt she have any other friends she could talk to? why do u guys hv to meet up? cant u just talk on9?" because i diiiiid promise him that i will try my best to trust him. but still i find this thing very disturbing.

no.2

why did he said yes to her? i know that he's being honest with me and all, its just dat why cant he think that she has other friends too?omagad?why world why?why are u so blindddddd boo?? eeeeee. and u knowwwwwww that i'm not gonna be ok wit it, yet u still said yes? and asked me? great, i appreciate the fact that u're telling me but pls??? imagine my ex called me up, bcos he has a problem n needs someone to talk to.wat wud u feel?

no.3

they are just friendsssssss!! why cant i accept that fact? i dunno n its bugging meeee..how can i let 2 ppl interfere with my happiness?damn it! i hate ittttt. i just hattteeeee it.right now i feel like i'm too kind by pretending its all alright but i'm so farrrraway and yessss m not the boss.gosssh y do u ppl do this...

no.4

i just despise girls who gets together with some1's guy. ok. i just hate it. arrrrrrrrrrrrrrghhh.

ok done.