i'm no believer of 2nd chances!

see the thing about me is that i hardly believe in 2nd chances! it's a good point sometimes...but it's also a bad point...reality is, once u make me angry, it's going to takeeee foreverrrrrrrr for me to forget about it although i try and say it's ok! once i hate u, i'll hate u biiiig time.we can try to make things ok again, but i'll still remember. pendendam?not so...i dont believe in revenge, it's just that i'll remember and i never want to go through the same situation again, hence, my reluctance to be in good terms again....thats it, i hate u means i hate u...maybe hate is a strong word.DISLIKE.yes dislike....thats it,i'm no hypocrite. if i say i dislike u, i mean it.wakakaka.

my karma is very strong, so i jussst know some ppl will feel the same way towards me too.no worries.every1 has the right to feel what they want, so i dont gv a damn.i'm just tryna live the best way i can.

the magic.

last nite, i texted with someone in my past :) ..."magic"is a word which i used most when we were together. indeed, he was 'magic'. he's some1 who always popped up whenever i thought about him, but then again, things are different now. although our relationship ended, we're still friends and that's good.

catching up with each other last nite was a good thing, we talked about what happened and what went wrong. he blamed it on his career which he said would make girls leave him, but he loves his work; and i'm glad he does. i left him because we have different commitments. we also talked about how each other's life is going and the simple things we used to enjoy conversing about.

i cant help but feel he is really something "magic" and i'm grateful for that. if it wasn't for him, i would not appreciate boo as much as i do now. i wont be as serious as i am now. i wont be able to handle long distance relationship the way i'm handling it right now. i cant help but think that god sent him to me to help me be a better person and prepare for the relationship i have now. so thank you for that, magic! :)